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My Gita Course


    om veena

Last question in lesson 1 —– Reflection

Bhagavad-Gita and how it can help bring inner transformation to your life.


I don’t know where to start and how truthful I should be about my experiences.  I always have been taught by my grandparents and in my Hindu upbringing that truth is God.

I moved from India to United Sates when I was 10 years.  I grew up with grandparents mostly who were semi religious.  Grandma always did her puja and Grandpa always read books and especially books from the Vedanta society.  My parents are not religious people. I have never seen mom do a puja. I think nonetheless she believes in God and went to the workshops offered by the Isha foundation. She knows that I am spiritual person and so she was making efforts for me to join but It did not appeal to me because my challenges were elsewhere. I was more interested in knowing my religion that I never really knew while growing up. None of my questions related to religion or culture were ever answered thoroughly. It was always I think this might be why or we just do this because that is how we have seen it done.

My passion for Sanskrit, Hindu Religion and Religion and spirituality, I hope will one day be my ritual and Yajna.

I picked up my first Gita about 10 or so years ago. I went through some tough times in my life. I looked to books for inspiration to carry me through my journey. I am now 33. I searched answers in Hindu religion and text. I have spent the last ten years turning the pages trying to make sense of the Sanskrit. I wanted to and was trying to read Sanskrit — a language I never studied but looked so very familiar. *sigh* It is not very common for people who turn to Gita to always read the Sanskrit.  When I read the Sanskrit the English translation and purports (or elaborations) of Prabhupada, nothing made sense. It was not Hinduism I knew it to be.  I do however have to acknowledge Isckon for being friendly and helping to answer my questions. The Sanskrit was speaking to me in a way the meaning is beyond me. Things have happened in the last few years that I can honestly and truthfully say is God’s with me. My tears are a witness to my truth.  I have experiences that I cannot fully explain to a human being because it is not practical.  I have taken up an interesting desire for translating the text —it is uncommon and might be under people’s judgement.  As I finished my lesson one of the Gita Course, I just sat there for a quite a few minutes moved by how much I just learned in lesson and how much I respect the roots of the knowledge of where I come from.  I do not know what or how people may or may not judge my work and I realized that is my inevitable journey. I have come to realize though that this is my karma and  I hope it will be fruitful. I can truthfully say God/spirits are with me. Recently, I have also been able to SEE things with my consciousness. I have seen the written out symbol of OM in blue, the time I was going through a lasik operation. I have also this last Navaratri festival (2011) was a witness to lot more things —- with my consciousness. I was left with something heavy in my hand and a pen? I don’t think my body fully understood what took place. I have never seen God with my naked eye or any thing else that was expressed here. Maybe that is what needs to happen for people to see the truth in what I am saying. We can not understand what you cannot put into relative terms ourselves. This was the most “practical” way I could describe my experiences since that was asked of us in this course. We do make choices in life whether to believe or not and that is up the individuals discretion.  With that said—- what would an acharya treat me like once they know of this or me?

Let me tell you, I feel the same or no less or no greater the others. I have not yet met one I wanted to show my respects to wholeheartedly. I have seen how some Swamiji’s respond to their disciples, and it’s not very nice. That is probably one of the reason I am weary of approaching someone about my experience also.   Simply for this reason, the ones I have witnessed talk down to their disciples.  Now, why don’t Hindu’s treat other like we each have an atma (the soul) the popular sentiment of Gita?

I have really come to admire the Chinmaya organization for what I have seen online. I  hope the organization, acharyas, and the Guru see the truth in my words during the journey of this course and guide me through studying Gita so that I can apply it in my life and conquer my challenges.