The Shabda Table

Sbhada table that I created.

 

 

 

 

 

The Hindu Worship

Hindu way of life is that of a personal god. Whether it is the prayer in front of the altar at home, or the way one approaches and receives god at the temples or the Hindu texts one decides to dwell in, it is the idea of personal God. There is no congregation or authority that dictates one right or wrong. It is perceived we are not without a sense, peoples sense and sensibility in their approach, time and place decides what is understood and yet to be understood in this personal relationship worship of God.

The blog static page

Updated static page to bring clarity to my experience and also writing to my writing satisfaction.

I am a 33 yr old female on a quest to learn about my religion — Hinduism. This is because of personal struggles and also the loss of my grandfather who I feel very connected to in spirit. It was my desire to understand my own religion and understand Gita that started this journey. The only words I understood were God loves me and the words of Joyce Meyer.  My religion is not what it looks like to the naked eyes, and in my opinion as Hindus we do not understand the true significance of worship or of being a Hindu. Most of it is accepted as the way things are done. What you see also is where we as Hindus fail miserably is we do not see beyond the four walls of our worship (or kitchen gods). What my mind knew of Hinduism is its depth, breath of its vastness and the eternal knowledge of the sacred Sanskrit language.  Through my spiritual journey of what life had presented me with and even though people might or might not understand that idea, I have to say I experienced God, spirit so to speak. Yes! I am not going to deny it, I cannot formulate any other way to describe it. I am not going to lie to the world. I experienced the Hindu Gods themselves – Vishnu and Lakshmi, Shiva, Brahma and Saraswati even though it might have been for a split minute. This happened along with experiencing grandpa in spirit after his passing away. How can one know this? My experience is only solely for me to understand and my journey. What I questioned of Hinduism because of having grown up here has proved to be true. It is a religion that holds validity. It is ancient beyond years and there is truth to the volumes of Sanskrit wealth and knowledge that is above our comprehension. Hinduism and all that it is not a myth. Hence why people believe it, study it and practice it.  The spiritual experiences I have had of experiencing the spirit told me our origins are not the same. I was able to experience it in way that is unreal and allows for me to respect race and roots a whole different way. This experience has taught me to believe in God with conviction and God’s power over this world real or unreal can no way can be understood in our one life time here.

There is lot of emotion that is surging through me as I write this sharing my experience and putting this experience out in the world/universe. Do you think people understand experiences they did not undergo themselves? In my life I feel blessed by God and the power of spirit. It is a personal experience that is only felt by me and perhaps not necessarily understood by many, until then I have to plow my path and just as each and everyone of us here inorder to survive and live in this world. It is a path less traveled and not what the universe can wrap their heads around right away of the truth I speak. The truth I speak of I vested in myself and feel that is vested in me and us if we believe in that higher power. Truth also I realized is a religious and spiritual concept. It is not the way people interact and to be frank understand one another. It holds higher power that people can only feel at a conscious level. What truth in experience is okay to share, accepted, and understood by people and societies? It be that the truth of our bodies.

I have to acknowledge this, to my amazement what I also experienced was Jesus. A soul, pure and perfect. Now, how do I tell the world that I experienced Hindu Gods and Jesus without sounding like a nut. It is not because of what I am drawn to also, there is no confusion here, I have experienced the spirit of Jesus pure and perfect and it is with my soul I am speaking the truth. I am an undenying Hindu, I have been pondering about my experiences with Jesus’s spirit and I have turned a few pages in the bible, attended a few services and then it occurred me Christianity is a religion in its own right, with a foundation that holds the power of God with the grip of its hand.  I never as a Hindu thought of it this way. I was that open minded, universal Hindu that some of us are, and accepted Jesus as a God. Simply because we do not rule out other’s religions and creeds and their birth and will in this world. I do have to add and say I have found the Christians to be nice, sweet and welcoming people. However, at times I feel they are not accepting of the fact that I have a religion. If they are and I am wrong I have to say I respect them all the more. For Hindu’s culture, religion and education are one and the same.  It is a way of life. Could a Christian teach me about the teachings of Jesus and still respect the fact that I have a religion?  I might be in a place where neither can I win the hearts of Hindus nor the hearts of Christians with what I maybe writing about experiences of without a doubt coming to know the existence of God and religion. I am writing this with only belief —- truth is God. I am just as curious and dumbfounded about where this journey will take me. Will one day or there be a day I will come to learn about Christianity and teachings of Jesus still keeping my own faith? I would like to be graced by that knowledge.

Be it the spiritual teachings of Hinduism or Christianity on word of God, what I believe is even though we have religious people what is accepted of us by god and other people are our spiritual bodies. What I mean by that is through acceptance of others and ourselves we infact understand God and spirituality. People of religion don’t necessarily have spiritual bodies and vice verse. What gives power to a religion is a spiritual acceptance and awakening from its teachings. I do believe the makeup of our bodies is our religion. Weather you believe in it and how much you believe in it is up to you. Meditating on anything with your eyes closed will help you realize the make up of your body and a sense of awareness for person that you are, your minds intellect, religion and values. I feel every religion and path has words of wisdom. In my journey I want to write and my gift to be able to write about religion or spirituality in a way each foundation is not altered and the soul appreciates what I have written. That is a journey that is yet to be realized.

What I am is what you can’t see or might always appreciate with your naked eyes because that is nature of this experience. I say this because it is not how we interact with one another. We live and breathe in maya.

I only ask that you do not be quick to judge this blog either because you don’t understand the experience of it, or the reason for it. If you are following my blog, you have to make a premise — make an assumption that something is true. In this case believing what I am writing and my experience to be true. I also ask that you do not judge what you see with and make connections with what you meet in person. I might not make any sense to you because this is all written with depth and not how we interact. In simple words it is a website about what I have come to discover about religion and spirituality, god and spirit and also the value of it. Through this journey I hope to have embraced the spirit, and in all the ways it transcends into our lives and may my journey here on earth be a witness to that.

If any of what I am writing resonates or is appreciated by you please like my page. Just remember I am a work in progress. The blog still needs a lot of editing and I am working on it to my writing satisfaction. I started this blog when my grandpa who is dear to me passed away.  This blog is also about having grown up in America and and the categories of what I came to know about culture and religion, and own human experience. I have been blessed by my grandparents spirit and I dedicate this blog in their memory and my evolution here on earth. You do not have to be Hindu or be from the Indian subcontinent to appreciate this blog.  Anything you like on my blog with a pure heart I believe will manifest to absolute truth that is soul. That is what is invested in me, you and us in our journey to God and reason for our human form and existence.

I would like to mention and express the word spirit is a word that does exist in a dictionary. I do not think it is made up word! It is one of the truths of human body and our experience as we cycle through this universe.

How many would be drawn to the words said here? And anything I said here. I will say it is spoken truthfully with my mind and heart. Our bodies might appreciate it, fight some of it or all it, but what I know is the soul will recognize the words spoken here in your nature. It is then, we will come to know ourselves in spirit.

Veena

On America’s Independence day the 4th of July

I feel proud and previleged to be a citizen of this country. One thing that was unreal to me was to see someone of Indian origin and from my parents own region of India be Ms. America. It was historic! I have seen many aspirations possible in this country, because we look up to those same ideals and opportunities that founded this country and what was intended for this country and can now be lived as the American dream by many others. The possibilities here are not always the possibilities in other third world countries is because it is the citizens that reflect what a country resembles like and what people value and care about and that is the civic sense to the country and its politics that people hold here dearly and I have come to admire. I feel fortunate to be part of a first world country like United Sates America that its people of color and women fought for also so I could enjoy the same rights. People who do not appreciate the race that gave birth to this country’s liberties, freedoms and luxuries and the founders of this establishment have done a grave dis service to this country and its race. May God bless America and its people. Happy 4th of July everyone!!

Truth

A quote by Ravindranath Tagore: “Facts are many but truth is one.”

What is that one truth we can all agree on and can we agree on such a truth? In my opinion truth is one, means one truth we can all agree on so it is to me when we are here no more, or happening in a different reality dynamic of what would take place spiritually with our bodies and not by which we would understand of how we live our lives. That dynamic, space and time happening of that one truth maybe that we are the spirit and the soul and not the body, that thirsts.

Everything that look place in my life since my grandfather passing away and the next five years after that was that reality with the spirit. Good and bad of that experience. I do not know why I should have experienced the bad but I did and not true to who I am. I only way I can hope to understand that is it is my teacher, and to count its blessings and be grateful that at 40 I am healthy and happy.

The truth is also this of that one reality that I experienced after surya namaskaram, that is the spirit in my life. The dead and also the living? I don’t know how this was taking place, I can’t formulate into words other than to say I experienced spirit. As I have mentioned it was good and bad. I can only describe my life then as insane, unreal, and real. What people understood of my life, didn’t understand and wanted prove of me through this experience was priceless. I don’t know people might have very well written their own karmas. If what people understand of this world resembles a like for Trump presidency or crucification of Jesus, what people cared, could care less and understood of my life also looked like that. Insane were the incidents that should have never happened, these out of body experiences with the spirit and also the blog, what I intended for it and what all happened with it also. That is not true to my being as person. The real is everything I experienced with my arranged marriage, and what all I learned of that situation in Indian culture. The loyalty to one’s experience has forever changed my life and relationships. Unreal are my meditative experiences years later. There is truth to what the swami’s have said, that it is possible to experience bliss through meditation and that have in my life years later. I come out of my meditations happy and blissful. What I have learned with all that happened in the last 10 years is people have taught me who they are and intellect they live with and understand of life.

The truth is also this, I am at peace with my self. I owe remainder of my life to my grandparents, and let fate guide my life. They cared for my happiness so much that I know they would not have it any other way, that is to see me happy. I am happier than I had ever been in the 40 years of my life. What I have experienced of God, spirit and soul I have to live with so when look back at those experiences or my meditation experiences I feel there must be greater purpose to my life. There may not be greater purpose in life for me, only being contended and at peace with myself and experience all the wealth in good health also. A family and children would be nice, I will let that fall into place in way it is supposed to by God’s grace.

I do not doubt another person in this world, might have experienced spirit, or a type of near death experience. These incidents have known to exist. So I may not be the only one who has experienced spirit in life.

I write from my soul. That is the truth. Maybe it also be the one truth with which we understand ourselves.

Short Film – Alice walker: Beauty in Truth

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ko4xPWKmsBTbiG0l-OunxGQoLsUqfO7qAtcd63tVzVo/edit?usp=sharing

On Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva

https://docs.google.com/document/d/139LjTJs5wc3TJqPsa1XjT73-ShuKbfeMqGhB58i49C0/edit?usp=sharing

Where does your mind go and what can it teach you?

Where does your mind go when you read all this written on this blog? Why does it go there? What do you think? How should a God bless you?

Do you think where your minds and eyes go and don’t go can teach you buddhi, siddhi, bhakti, and Jna* ?

What is buddhi? The difference between and ones understanding of right and wrong. Ones Intellect.

What is Siddhi? Ones accomplishment, perfection in your accomplishment, a sense of achievement from sadhana (practice).

What is Bhakti?  Ones  search for God, your belief in God, devotion for God and something higher in power.

What is Jna*?  You have a good judgement. It is the highest kind of knowledge/wisdom.

What does it look like in this world? Opening of one’s eyes, there is Sanskrit verse for this.

Where your eyes go, don’t go, acknowledge and fail to acknowledge will teach you the undenying Hindu principles most importantly the truth of the soul. To be content with ourselves in truth, is the undenying nature of our yoga here also.

The difference between content and context

America the difference between content and context.

The content, a post, the visual material that you simply read with your mind. The knowledge you hope to gain for a desired purpose of importance.

And

The Context, the time and place this post took place in, that is what is important — the current state of events, thoughts and as they apply to a certain place in time.

Content will judge you. Context will never judge you.

Self Portrait