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Am I a Hindu?

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I am a 33 yr old female on a quest to learn about my religion — Hinduism. This is because of personal struggles and also the loss of my grandfather who I feel very connected to in spirit. It was my desire to understand my own religion and understand Gita that started this journey. The only words I understood were God loves me and the words of Joyce Meyer.  My religion is not what it looks like to the naked eyes, and in my opinion as Hindus we do not understand the true significance of worship or of being a Hindu. Most of it is accepted as the way things are done. What you see also is where we as Hindus fail miserably is we do not see beyond the four walls of our worship (or kitchen gods). What my mind knew of Hinduism is its depth, breath of its vastness and the eternal knowledge of the sacred Sanskrit language.  Through my spiritual journey of what life had presented me with and even though people might or might not understand that idea, I have to say I experienced God, spirit so to speak. Yes! I am not going to deny it, I cannot formulate any other way to describe it. I am not going to lie to the world. I experienced the Hindu Gods themselves – Vishnu and Lakshmi, Shiva, Brahma and Saraswati even though it might have been for a split minute. This happened along with experiencing grandpa in spirit after his passing away. How can one know this? My experience is only solely for me to understand and my journey. What I questioned of Hinduism because of having grown up here has proved to be true. It is a religion that holds validity. It is ancient beyond years and there is truth to the volumes of Sanskrit wealth and knowledge that is above our comprehension. Hinduism and all that it is not a myth. Hence why people believe it, study it and practice it.  The spiritual experiences I have had of experiencing the spirit told me our origins are not the same. I was able to experience it in way that is unreal and allows for me to respect race and roots a whole different way. This experience has taught me to believe in God with conviction and God’s power over this world real or unreal can no way can be understood in our one life time here.

There is lot of emotion that is surging through me as I write this sharing my experience and putting this experience out in the world/universe. Do you think people understand experiences they did not undergo themselves? In my life I feel blessed by God and the power of spirit. It is a personal experience that is only felt by me and perhaps not necessarily understood by many, until then I have to plow my path and just as each and everyone of us here inorder to survive and live in this world. It is a path less traveled and not what the universe can wrap their heads around right away of the truth I speak. The truth I speak of I vested in myself and feel that is vested in me and us if we believe in that higher power. Truth also I realized is a religious and spiritual concept. It is not the way people interact and to be frank understand one another. It holds higher power that people can only feel at a conscious level. What truth in experience is okay to share, accepted, and understood by people and societies? It be that the truth of our bodies.

I have to acknowledge this, to my amazement what I also experienced was Jesus. A soul, pure and perfect. Now, how do I tell the world that I experienced Hindu Gods and Jesus without sounding like a nut. It is not because of what I am drawn to also, there is no confusion here, I have experienced the spirit of Jesus pure and perfect and it is with my soul I am speaking the truth. I am an undenying Hindu, I have been pondering about my experiences with Jesus’s spirit and I have turned a few pages in the bible, attended a few services and then it occurred me Christianity is a religion in its own right, with a foundation that holds the power of God with the grip of its hand.  I never as a Hindu thought of it this way. I was that open minded, universal Hindu that some of us are, and accepted Jesus as a God. Simply because we do not rule out other’s religions and creeds and their birth and will in this world. I do have to add and say I have found the Christians to be nice, sweet and welcoming people. However, at times I feel they are not accepting of the fact that I have a religion. If they are and I am wrong I have to say I respect them all the more. For Hindu’s culture, religion and education are one and the same.  It is a way of life. Could a Christian teach me about the teachings of Jesus and still respect the fact that I have a religion?  I might be in a place where neither can I win the hearts of Hindus nor the hearts of Christians with what I maybe writing about experiences of without a doubt coming to know the existence of God and religion. I am writing this with only belief —- truth is God. I am just as curious and dumbfounded about where this journey will take me. Will one day or there be a day I will come to learn about Christianity and teachings of Jesus still keeping my own faith? I would like to be graced by that knowledge.

Be it the spiritual teachings of Hinduism or Christianity on word of God, what I believe is even though we have religious people what is accepted of us by god and other people are our spiritual bodies. What I mean by that is through acceptance of others and ourselves we infact understand God and spirituality. People of religion don’t necessarily have spiritual bodies and vice verse. What gives power to a religion is a spiritual acceptance and awakening from its teachings. I do believe the makeup of our bodies is our religion. Weather you believe in it and how much you believe in it is up to you. Meditating on anything with your eyes closed will help you realize the make up of your body and a sense of awareness for person that you are, your minds intellect, religion and values. I feel every religion and path has words of wisdom. In my journey I want to write and my gift to be able to write about religion or spirituality in a way each foundation is not altered and the soul appreciates what I have written. That is a journey that is yet to be realized.

What I am is what you can’t see or might always appreciate with your naked eyes because that is nature of this experience. I say this because it is not how we interact with one another. We live and breathe in maya.

I only ask that you do not be quick to judge this blog either because you don’t understand the experience of it, or the reason for it. If you are following my blog, you have to make a premise — make an assumption that something is true. In this case believing what I am writing and my experience to be true. I also ask that you do not judge what you see with and make connections with what you meet in person. I might not make any sense to you because this is all written with depth and not how we interact. In simple words it is a website about what I have come to discover about religion and spirituality, god and spirit and also the value of it. Through this journey I hope to have embraced the spirit, and in all the ways it transcends into our lives and may my journey here on earth be a witness to that.

If any of what I am writing resonates or is appreciated by you please like my page. Just remember I am a work in progress. The blog still needs a lot of editing and I am working on it to my writing satisfaction. I started this blog when my grandpa who is dear to me passed away.  This blog is also about having grown up in America and and the categories of what I came to know about culture and religion, and own human experience. I have been blessed by my grandparents spirit and I dedicate this blog in their memory and my evolution here on earth. You do not have to be Hindu or be from the Indian subcontinent to appreciate this blog.  Anything you like on my blog with a pure heart I believe will manifest to absolute truth that is soul. That is what is invested in me, you and us in our journey to God and reason for our human form and existence.

I would like to mention and express the word spirit is a word that does exist in a dictionary. I do not think it is made up word! It is one of the truths of human body and our experience as we cycle through this universe.

How many would be drawn to the words said here? And anything I said here. I will say it is spoken truthfully with my mind and heart. Our bodies might appreciate it, fight some of it or all it, but what I know is the soul will recognize the words spoken here in your nature. It is then, we will come to know ourselves in spirit.


Meditation verse for Bhagavad Gita


scripture study meditation verse

Meditation verse on Gita

Om Parthaya prati bodhitam bhagavata narayanena svayam,
Vyasaena grathitam Purana munina madhye Mahabharatam,
Advaitamrta varsinim bhagavatim ashta dasa dhyayinim,
Amba tvam anusandadhami bhagavad-gite bhavadvesinim.


Om Parthaya prati bodhitam — Om parthaya reason for it is (arjuna), that do everytime (prati) the philosophical knowledge explained given to us (bodhitam)

Bhagavata narayanena svayam — Bhagavata (bhagavata) told by lord god Narayana (narayayena) himself for the entire (svayam)

Vyasaena grathitam purana munina madhye Mahabharatam — even though it was vyasa (vyasaena) who wrote the book (grathitam), the muni from the past (purana munina) in the middle of Mahabharata katha (madhye Mahabharatam)

Advaitamrta varsinim bhagavatim ashta dasa dyayinim —- the immortal nectar of the advaita (advaitamrta), by showering us with (varsinim), Gods words given to us (bhagavatim) in the form of, 18 chapters to meditate upon (ashta dasa dyayinim)

Amba tvam anusandadhami bhagavad-gite bhavadvesinim – And unto the mother (amba), I meditate upon recite the Bhagavad Gita (tvam anusandadhami bhagavad gite), the destroyer of the house or dwelling of samsara (bhavadvesinim).

(My own translation of the mediation verse)

Om. Parthaya (Arjuna), the reason for it is Arjuna, that do everyday the philosophical knowledge explained to us by Lord Naryana himself for the entire. Even though it was vyasa who wrote the book, the muni from the past, in the middle of Mahabharata Katha, the immortal nectar of advaita, by showering us with Gods words given us in the form of 18 chapters to meditate upon. And unto the mother, I meditate upon recite the Bhagavad Gita, the destroyer of the house or dwelling of samsara.


Please also check the various meaning online on the internet and see if this makes a difference it brings clarity or in the way you understand.




Sahanavavatu Mantra


Om sahana avavatu 

Om help us together to (saha na) that which is happening in good manner (avavatu)

sahanau bhunaktu

Help us together to that we are part of  (sahanau) which we eat/enjoy with our bodies (bhunaktu) (in essence to say that which we consume with our bodies literally and figuratively)

saha viryam karaavavahai 

Help (saha) to give us strength (viryam) to perform in order to (karaavavahai)

Tejasvinau adhitamastu 

illuminate in us (Tejasvinau) that ignorance/darkness (adhitama) be it so that (astu)

maa vidvishaavahai

from our (maa) study (vid) the enmity/poison that exists around us (vishaavahai)

Om Shantih Shantih Shantih

Om peace, peace, peace


Om…. help us together to that which is happening in good manner; help us together to that we are part of which we eat/enjoy with our bodies, help to give us strength to perform inorder to illuminate in us that darkness/ignorance from our studies, be it so that from the enmity/poison that exists around us.  Om peace, peace, peace. 

It is a beautiful prayer that is recited at the beginning of a study or before a spoken discourse. 

sahana avavatu


Check out the internet with the many other meanings.

Om Sahana Vavatu – In sanskrit with meaning

Om Sahana vavatu shanti mantra Lyrics and meaning


Notes: for the meaning in the above website I would like to point there are no words in the sloka for a teacher or student or lord or to be protected. One website writes ma visha, to mean let us never be poisoned, it is ma vid visha so knowing that it would not make sense to think of it that way. Nonetheless, the meanings from the all of the other websites though there are variations convey the over all meaning if that is all you care about. Since I am particular about what makes sense to me and how I understand things that is reading from left to right and taking a deeper look at the meaning to understand it and make sense of it in way it is meant to be understood in Sanskrit.

What is this Symbol?


You see America — I don’t know the Bible.  A religion and foundation in its own right. Will anyone understand these words and in a way there is no judgement?

This is a blog about my quest to understand religion, with meaning.

Does anyone know what the Vishnu’s Symbol Kapita stands for? A symbol that you see in the picture below.

I wonder if it is for the 2 religions or paths? It is my belief that everything stemmed out of two religions — Hinduism and Christianity. For example, Buddhism, Jainism, and Sikhism came out of Hinduism. One might or might not agree with the idea of everything stemming out of two religions or do you think it has some validity? I believe there maybe truth to this. In the picture below Kapita is the symbol that Vishnu is showing to Arjuna in his discourse of Gita. I have seen this symbol in church services and it is also a symbol of Jesus that you see the picture below.

Vishnu Kapitha Mudra E            Jesus image kapita


Now, what the symbol Kapita means in both the religions is what I hope to find out. I would like to think it is for ways (margam – way to) in this world, one through the power of mind and the other through the power of heart.  Actually, what I found out about this symbol is it symbolizes explaining meaning. 

A Hindu —- What is a Hindu? Hinduism under construction.


Hinduism Under Construction

What is a Hindu?

1. A Hindu, having the eyes, knowledge, and awareness for Intellect (right from wrong).  
2. It is understanding Arhata, who is fit for worthiness. 
3. It is following the rules of samsara, the “Conditioned life.”
4. It is living by example.  
5. It is doing your duty – “karthavyam deva mangikam.
6. It is realizing Karma, that for every thought, deed and action there is a manifestation happening bigger than our universe.
7. It is following the guidance of a Guru or realizing who the teacher is that may have opened your eyes.
8. It is yada yada hi dharmasaya glanir bhavati bharata abhyutthanam adharmasya tada atamanam srjamya aham. Paritranaya sadhunam vinasya ca dustkrtam dharma-samsthapanarthaya sambhavami yuge yuge. One of the favorites verses in all of Bhagavad Gita. It is belief that god will come through for the good, the righteous and the just, millennium after millennium.
9. It is an awakening or enlightenment, a type of wisdom associated with knowledge – Jna.
10. It is a realization of being aware of your own 5 senses or the Indriyas. 
11. It is a realization and consciousness of the self.
12. It is about Dharma, the eternal law of this universe and its manifestation. Truthful living, righteousness and duty that which you treasure.* The greater good each individual feels and one hopes for in this world.
13. It is knowing each individual you meet has atma (the soul). That which cannot be killed or murdered. Also not every soul on this earth is divine, it is that every soul is only potentially divine. It is for us to discover that divinity in our lives.
14. It is using your consciousness to be your guide.
15. It is having faith and bhakti (Devotion) towards God, that pour through your eyes. The foremost sense and aspect of worshipping God and surrender.
16. It is looking into and seeing with your eyes the “expression of others eyes” in way you can see their ttava (behaviours)/prakriti (nature) /gunas (character traits)
17. It is understanding the value and values of education.
18. It is meditating on Om.
19. It is seeing things for what they are and people for who they are – admiring them or keeping your own self-respect.

20. It is respecting “Guru” or really respecting what we value the most — the learning.

21. It is seeing the Maya and yet not fully being able to understand its manifestation.

22. It is living by God’s principles, the moral,  ethical way to transforming the self. Why else would anyone need religion?

23. It is embracing the power of: shradha, siddhi, buddhi.*
24. It is understanding the expression: Children are equal to god – in purity.
25. It is understanding the values in education of sanskriti, sampradaya and samskar.
26. It is seeing the wealth of sadhana (practice) to understand the term perfection.
27. It is understanding what god has blessed you with, Anna (food). And that is the term in Bhagavad Gita and Sanskrit for food.
28. It is Anatha ——- Orphan —that does not have neither beginning nor end.

Are you a Hindu?

Do you see a resemblance based on your foundation, upbringing and experience?

How does one see this, as a Hindu, non hindu and how you may or may not even know a Hindu? A priceless ques. for you.

How do you measure each of these? *

Do you still consider yourself a Hindu after reading this post?

What do you think the difference is? where this is coming from? That is also something to learn from about a person and ourselves.

Thank you for taking the time to read it!

4.7 Yada yada hi dharmasya







yada yada hi dharmasya

Whenever, whenever indeed there is dharma, that face, mouth of, righteous and just

Glanir bhavati bharata

that shining and glorious expression is that of bharata (India)

abhyuthanam adharmasya

rise to the occasion where there is adharma (injust and wrong)

tada atamanam srjamya aham

at that time in that form (atma) wearing the garland is I.


Whenever, whenever indeed there is dharma, that face, mouth of righteous and just that shinning glorious expression is that of bharata (India). Rise to the occasion where there is adharma (injust and wrong), at that time in that form wearing the garland is I.

Notes:The word asya according to the dictionary I was using is face, mouth of a person and that is what I used here to describe dharmasya.



The Last verse in Bhagavad Gita 18.78

The Last verse in Bhagavad Gita 18.78

Chapter 18 —- Verse 78 (The last verse in Gita)

Yatra yog’esvarah krsno yatra partho dhanur-dharah Tatra srir vijayo bhutir dhruva nitir matir mama

My Translation

Yatra – Journey

Yog esvarah Krsno—- Union perfected (yog) by esvarah krsno

Yatra – the journey

Partho — is Arjuna’s

Dhanur dharah —holding/wearing the bow (dhanur)  maintaining the way (dharah) [vidhi however is the path]

Tatra — There upon in that meeting (on the battlefield — implied)

Srir —- glories/good fortune

Vijayo — victory to the

Bhutir – human spirit

Dhruva –  its firm will/ resolve

Nitir —the moral principals [ Telugu — neetulu ]

Matir — of the mind 

mama  — belonging to us.

My Meaning:

Journey is perfected by esvarah krsno. Journey belongs to Arjuna’s who was holding the bow.  There upon in that meeting (battlefield) went on the glories/good fortune —– victory to the human spirit, firm will/resolve; the moral principals, of the mind belonging to us.

What does it say in the text by Tapasyananda?

Where ever there is Krishna, the lord of yoga, accompanied by Arjuna wielding the bow — there reign good fortune,victory, prosperity and sound policy. Such is my conviction.